i shun my slap.

2007-10-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

i dont want to talk about it.

but i guess just a few words would sum up my thoughts and get the matter off my chest:

screw the eoys.

2007-10-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

AHHH NOOOO D= i completely screwed up my english and ss! history history! you had better give me a good time this thursday!

after destroying my grades in two subjects, i went to yuying secondary for a dentist's appointment =D the dentist was really nice! but she didnt give me a lollipop like they did last time! lollipops are nice and i like cherry/chocolate/apple and whatnot flavours

it feels really relaxing on my nerves to have gotten english and ss over and done with, though i still regret not managing the tests well enough. ohwell, i guess i have to rely on good old history to pull up my pants.

i cant wait for rjc. indeed, 'tis a chance to start another year on a fresh new page. yes, it's an opportunity to meet new people and explore new areas. but most importantly, it means that i can finally throw away the crappy notes from past years! they've been collecting dust and taking up valuable space, and since im an academically-sentimental person, i couldnt have possibly summoned the willpower to chuck them away. but soon, i will be able to fulfill this deep dark desire of mine. BWAHAHA!

2007-10-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

lols today i had to lug my overdue library books to school and return them. when i got there, there were like no librarian anywhere in sight, which totally ruined my mood. fortunately, a nice guy came along and worked it out for me.

bought a nice pink bottle last night, which happens to store and squirt water well. whoopie =D

got back chem pt, physics cct and ss documentary today. not the best of results, but cheered me up nonetheless. 29/30 for chem, 30/30 for physics and 16.5/20 for ss

bahh gotta mug physics + ss + english soon! tata!

2007-10-01T19:33:00.000+08:00

poo i have to chiong for history! D=

at least my math is quite stable now! thanks to the awesome pt on roller coasters and ferris wheels. they should assign it a higher ca weightage =O

and today, we got back math competition certs. i got honourable mention for smo. jokes -__- i bet i barely passed that paper.

but i got 39 out of 40 for nsw! D= i thought i had a chance at full marks, which = another shiny medal!

today was prometheum day too! kinda boring, the usual ceremonial stuff. but i loved the staff procession.

after school, i stayed back in class to do a bit of math revision. integration-application's quite tedious and roomy for careless mistakes. made me go mad for hours.

at 5.45, i went down to the void deck and saw daniel chew! who was happily studying his geog notes. he bought me some peanuts, which was nice, and we mugged our own stuff for a bit. i really miss doing projects with him.

tata, gotta mug!

2007-09-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

finally, i've started mugging =D

covered pressure, kmm and temperature for physics today! might go for thermal properties of matter later, if it aint too hot to handle.

but i got sidetracked abit today la due to the amazing wonders of tv. high school musical is nice! i like the song "when there was me and you"!

yayy jared's lending me his intro to advanced bio =DD hooray for jared!

thank you vera for offering it too =) i dont want to trouble you. A1s ftw ok! all the best!

2007-09-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

God, i am such a child.

i wasnt even a child when i was supposed to be. in my younger days, i was introverted and taciturn, unwilling to socialise too much. my greatest companions were encyclopaedias and dictionaries. my favourite foods were vegetables and fruits. i delighted in saving up as much money as possible, caluculated and evaluated my liquid assets on a daily basis, and took pride in it all.

i wasnt a child at all.

but now i am. seems like i've gotten more psychologically immature over the years. now, i talk a lot of rubbish, play pranks, act stupid, daydream, watch cartoons, and dont bother to study.

if this keeps up, i'd be pooping in my diapers when i get into national service.

D= i need serious help

2007-09-28T15:44:00.000+08:00

i awoke in the middle of the night, feeling all groggy and cold. but the coldness wasnt just cold; it wasnt just about the average kinetic energies of the particles and whatnot. i felt cold and lonely, and abandoned, and that the air around me was devoid of potential happiness.

it was scary, and i was scared. and i tried hiding myself under the blanket to warm up. it did little to ease my emotions, and cold as i was, i fell into deep slumber once more.

since young, i have been petrified of coldness. upon placing me in an air-conditioned room, i would begin to shiver and feel uneasy. prolonged exposure would lead to lethargy and great distress. perhaps the years of studying with air-conditioning have conditioned me as well. i have come to embrace this technological product and gotten accustomed to it.

lol ok i have no idea why i just posted all that. anyway, we had an open-book assignment for chemistry today, which i pretty much screwed up. it was held in the auditorium, which unfortunately did not have tables suitable for doing assignments on. plus, it was extremely easy for one to obtain answers in a stroke of inspiration by patiently observing his surroundings. -_- they should get a better venue next time.

haha yeah and we got back two english stuffs today: showcase portfolio and compre. didnt do too well for the latter. my slipshod compre skills barely earned me 16.5 out of 20 marks. D= that magnesium of a sam lim got 20!

hah anyway i owned him for showcase =D 57 upon 60! i like!

i was pretty shocked cos i handed up second submission along with it, which she explicitly stated was a no-no. anyway, doesnt matter.

i have to get my meathooks on somebody's "introduction to advanced biology" soon. i still cant find mine! better start calling up the seniors.

2007-09-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

had dinner with my mum, and as usual, i ended up eating half her main course. she wants to lose weight =OO what's with this desire to be skinny anyway?

i've been looking through my chat logs. well, only one. it made me realise how idiotic i was back then, emo and nerdy and foolhardy; how i was so eager to believe lies that were so obviously lies; how incredibly immature i was. it made me sick.

why was i such an idiot? why did i let myself be disappointed and disgusted? and all those saccharine lovey-dovey poems that i had weaved now come across as such tearfully nauseating travesties.

if you're reading these rants of mine and think you might to be blame, you're not. everything was my doing; my stupidity; my screw-up. so, if you please, get on with your life and let me go on with mine.

2007-09-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

today was a sleepy day =)

woke up at eightish, showered, cooked some salmon spinach soup, ate it, and napped until now =D

blah i cant stop thinking about _____ =(

after all that's been said and done, i know that i've no chance to make it up to you. yes, i was angry with you before, and it led my rotten immature ego to react bitterly. im real sorry ><

i wish i hadnt been such an idiot.

2007-09-26T15:54:00.000+08:00

dmp ended at 9.30am today =D

and there's no school tomorrow!

anyway, i borrowed past-year papers to photocopy and do, but the machines were all occupied D= by fellow sec4s with similar intentions. hmpf =(

bussed to the national library after lunch and i met a good friend there! the meeting was brief but nice =)

i didnt find any books in the national library (oddly enough), but i did find a posh little toilet and a drama centre where snapshots of local plays were on exhibition.

anyway, i feel like having a good nap now =D sleepy shauna should seriously secure some slumber soon!

tata!

2007-09-25T17:20:00.001+08:00

school today was pure chinese D= now we have TWO rgs hmt papers to do. good job.

after that, we went to the library to do math. haha pure integration rocks! when i finished the paper, theng was still lagging by ten questions and he gave up in the end to pursue physics. we had help from yuezhen too =O she's damn pro, taking triple science + math + h1 geog! i wanted to go for something like that, but my bio really stinks, so too bad.

i was fiddling with theng's spherical paper lantern {which niu yi laoshi gave to him and everybody else}, which i christened lantern. it was very cute! round and colourful. and it had a nice wide mouth too

we went subway for lunch. theng and yuezhen shared a footlong meatball sandwich, while i had a subway club sandwich. the food's not bad, and i'd be a regular patron if it werent so taxing on my wallet.

i went to popular to buy the physics workout book thingy, but i couldnt find it! apparently, all the copies have sold out =O my physics gonna die!

blah i cant wait for dinner. and i dont want to mug either >< the only revision i can bring myself to do is math

hopefully clegg or pickering will show up soon. until then, i'll have to get by any bio revision without the use of textbooks.

2007-09-24T17:46:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9.30am and bussed off to school for graphics calcs module.

for the past two weeks or so, i've been doing math revision on the north-south line and bus 156. this can be quite awkward, what with the cumbersome calculator and all. but i cant help it. math {especially pure calculus} can be addictively therapeutic.

since i had missed the previous lesson, i had to do the performance task in solitary confinement today. i handed it up to her after twenty minutes and she marked it in five seconds =OO i got 18 out of 20 marks. screw =(( i cant interpret box plots well enough

yes yes i know that my posts are all about academic stuff and blah. im sorry >< but i cant help filling my mind with all this right now. eoys are round the corner!

2007-09-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

business@school is over =D

in retrospective, i realise how much i have gained from this pilot project. my fogged understanding towards the world of commerce has considerably subsided through the hours of company research, data compilation, and the putting-of-our-heads-together to learn how entrepreneurships work.

nevertheless, i shall bid goodbye to economics for now. in fact, im not intending to take up any humanities subject in jc. it's not that i don't like them, or that i have no respect for them. it's just that my brain was pretty much designed for linear, monotonous nonsense such as physics and math. perhaps i'll revisit my beloved interest of psychology when im more mentally mature.

haha one of the bcg judges went up to me after the event and said that he liked my presentation skills. i was pretty surprised and flattered =OO maybe he was, in part, trying to console me for making a fool of myself and yet obtaining the worst possible award. anything's possible.

i still havent mugged yet =(( im going to whack myself la

2007-09-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

i am so sad =(

i shall drown my sorrows in sleep

sue me for being a materialistic self-concerned freak, but i cant help worrying about my dreaded gpa D= if i screw up these eoys, it's completely dead!

without the factoring of eoys, my gpa would come up to 3.91, which is definitely a relief. but this figure is due to the fact that seven out of my nine subjects are barely on the right side of the threshold.

RAAH. i need that scholarship baaaad! someone destroy the eoys!

2007-09-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

a rant about academics by shaun ang ah kow.

my bio stinks =(

less than sixteen days to go and i still havent mustered the determination to study. fortunately, i manage to find little difficulty with solving math problems, except that the little distractions around me tend to empower my carelessness >< painful

had a major organic chem lesson today, where i struggled to grasp every single concept she taught. she's a really good teacher, and i really have no desire to disappoint her, but i probably wouldnt be touching too much of chem revision in the next fortnight. im banking on my adequately-high ca to scrape a 4.0 (i tried this strategy last year and it worked. please wish me all the best this time round).

i hope hope hope that english + ss + history eoys wont be so killer! my ca in these subjects are precariously bordering on 80 and i cannot bear to have any of them drop =(( well, c'est humanities. they're so unpredictable.

baah why am i caught in this nauseating academic rat race anyway! i keep telling myself, "get that high gpa and you've got it made, man!". it certainly isnt the key to happiness, but it serves as an effective motivation to maintain my learning (i suppose).

ah whatever >< i'll just chiong these last three weeks and go crazy for the months to follow.

and that concludes our rant for today.

have a pleasant exit.

2007-09-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

i wish i wish i wish
i were a little fish
with leeks and gravy
or brinjals and curry
around me in the dish

2007-04-11T20:25:00.001+08:00

the end.